Suicide

*Quick disclaimer: this was a poem I wrote when I was 14, so no this isn't about any current situation in my life. This was just my way of expressing the darkness in myself at that age.

Suicide

The screams drown out the lessons she was supposed to learn

People just watch as her skin begins to burn

The moans fade into the silence of the pitch black night

Ashamed that she gave in without putting up a fight

Plunging headfirst off the cliff into the crashing waves

Smashed against rocks for the end of all days

The knives cut into her scarred up skin

She's way too weak to even try to win

She gives into her now half-crazed mind

Going towards the light to never again glance behind

Photo Credit goes to Deviant Art

The artist's gallery page is in the link below

Lucas

The Offer

I've been reading this book called Spilling Ink: A Young Writer's Handbook, and I have to say it is one of the most helpful things I have read in terms of writing tips. I will be referencing it for a few more posts and highly recommend you taking the time to read it if your looking for useful writing tips.

Throughout this book the two authors give you random prompts for you to practice different writing ideas/techniques. One of them was to take two people you admire, write down one thing you admire from each person, and use those qualities to make one character. Then they give you a situation to have that character respond to. So I wanted to share my short story stemming from this prompt.

The two people I chose were:

Mom- her admirable trait was her perseverance (seriously, she has been through Hell and back and I have never seen her give up or slow down)

Dad- his admirable trait was honesty (he was the kind of guy who would rather tell you I will answer you when you're older, instead of lying to you)

Anyways, here is the story......

The Offer

Lisa was on her way to Grand Central Park to go for a quick jog before work. She pressed the button on the pole at the intersection and began to wait for the light to indicate she could cross the street. Looking around she saw a short bald man with an umbrella hat and beach clothes on moving quickly in her direction. As he got closer, he made eye contact with her and gave her a relieved smile. Then he handed her a small sealed carton she hadn't noticed him carrying a moment before and said, "Don't let anything happen to this!" Before she could say anything to him, the man ran off in the opposite direction.

Looking down at the carton, Lisa's mind raced about what could be inside. The man hadn't really looked dangerous, just strange. After standing there looking dumbfounded, she finally came to a decision. She would give the man one hour to return it before taking it to the police station as a lost and found item. She would be a little late to work if he didn't come back before the hour finished, but the man had decided to trust her for some reason; and she really wanted to ask him what was inside.

She walked across the street and sat at the first bench she found to wait for the man. After 45 minutes passed, Lisa began to think he wouldn't come back; but just as she got up to look around, the man came across the street towards her with a huge grin on his face.

"I knew you would be the one lawyer in New York City I could trust!", he exclaimed. Now she was nervous. Who was this man and how did he know she was a lawyer? And how did he know she ran in Grand Central Park every morning before work? Realizing he had been stalking her or having her followed, she started to back away.

"Don't be afraid! My name is Matt Hamilton from The Prime Ink Corporation and I've been looking for a lawyer to handle my private and business affairs.", he said.

Her interest had peaked upon realizing who he was, but she was still feeling a little unsettled.

"Look, I don't care if you're the owner of a billion dollar company or not, you can't go around stalking people! You could have just as easily called me at my office if you were looking to hire me.", she told him angrily.

"Yes, but I needed to know if I could trust you to look after my affairs. If you open the box, you will see how much I am willing to pay you per month to work full-time for me with benefits.", he replied smugly.

Getting annoyed at how he seemed to think she would just instantly agree, she looked down at the carton Opening it, she glanced inside. Struggling to swallow, she looked back up at him.

"This would be my monthly salary?", she asked in disbelief.

He just smiled, nodded his head, reached into his pocket, and handed her his business card before turning around and walking away. She turned it over and saw he had written her start date and time for two weeks from today; giving her just enough time to give her firm two weeks notice. When she looked back up from the card, Mr. Hamilton was gone.

Lost Innocence

Live above the influence

Don't let life bring you down

Be the best you can be

If you fail, try another round

Listen to the words of your broken dreams

Beat yourself up over every little thing

Fall, fall, fall into a deep abyss

Soon all you'll see is pure darkmess

Watch as your life turns inside out

Let pain cloud every judgement with worry and doubt

Have rage take hold of your life's wheel

For soon it will be all you can feel

Hold on to a moment, then let it go

Give into temptation and watch the lies grow

Twist reality until it matches your worst nightmare

Then life will no longer hold anything to fear

Contort your inner self until your unrecognizable

Spin, spin, spin out of your own self control

Enjoy every moment of complete ecstacy

With the pleasure comes the illusion that your free

One day, you'll look in the mirror and see

It's too late; you can never return to who you used to be

Photo credit goes to writer J.W Kash

A link to the exact page on his site this picture was used is below. It's worth clicking on the link guys because he has a pretty interesting/funny post along with this picture and a few others.

J.W. Kash

Deathnote Series vs. Deathnote Movie

For anyone who loves the animated series Deathnote, take my advice and DO NOT watch the movie adaptation on Netflix. As someone who has never really loved anime, when I actually sat down with my husband to watch the Deathnote series, it blew me away how much I ended up loving it. The intricate battle of wits between the characters Light and L are what make this series so enticing to watch. Not to mention the overall concept/plot. 

The show takes place in Japan, and is about a high school kid (Light) who comes across a notebook that allows him to kill people by writing their names into it. The deathnote itself comes with many rules that become revealed to the audience throughout the show and each rule is vital in how Light s able to escape getting caught by L.

In the Netflix movie Deathnote; not only does the setting take place in America, but the characters story lines are changed drastically. Even the characters themselves seem to be having two conflicting personalities; one that sticks to the original plot line of the show, and one that fits into this new setting/story line. As if this wasn't depressing enough for someone who was hoping they wouldn't screw up this adaptation too much, the special effects just didn't make the cut at all. The shinigami looked awful! With all of the amazing alien and paranormal movies coming out left and right these days, I truly expected more from the special effects teams in this movie. 

Overall this movie will leave you with a bad taste in your mouth and make you cringe anytime Netflix decides they want to turn any show you love into a movie.

Photo Credits

Image 1- IGN

Image 2- The Daily Dot

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Sassy Sauce Time

Lately there are so many things going on in America that show how big of a divide we truly have living in this country. The media, of course, is going to play off of our differences just so they can get better ratings. It's sad, but true. What is even more sad is the amount of people who take one or two news channels word for what really happened in an incident or who was behind it, etc. I don't know about you guys, but in a "basic"high school english class, we were taught the importance of getting multiple sources for any paper we wrote, any stance we took, and for any speech we gave. 

I know, it can get pretty annoying to go ahead and dig for the truth, especially if you weren't born with a curious mind, but we live in a time where we have to start fact checking every source we read or listen to.

Also, with the wide divide that we are seeing in our beautiful country, it is our duty to stop remaining silent about important issues. It is time for us to put our necks on the line and not be afraid to hurt feelings by standing up for what we believe is right. If we lose friends along the way of trying to dig out the truth, share it, and take a stance on that issue, then who really needed that friend anyway. This is no longer a time when we can let fear hold our tongues. Take a stance, and most importantly, spread truth and love to everyone in America because we all call this amazing country our home. 

Photo Credits

Image 1-  The Odyssey

Image 2- Browse Wallpapers

Church Hunt

We've all been there. That moment when you pull into a parking lot of a church you've never been to before. It can be pretty intimidating. Especially if you are going in through those doors alone.

This past Sunday, that is the exact experience I had. It's been a long time since I have attended a church service, and for me I was in half the mind to not even go because of course, I was running late. As if it wasn't already going to feel weird enough, I had to add on that extra pressure of walking in 5-10 minutes late. 

But it ended up being worth it. My daughter is 5 and she loves going to church, so no matter what I had to be sure that we actually went because this was something she wanted to go do, and who am I to hold my child back from wanting to get to know God better? Especially when I am the one who has been teaching her about him.

So there we were, getting out of our car and immediately I notice a few other people making their way into the service; which of course made me feel a little bit better. I got my daughter checked in to her kids service in the smaller building to the left of the main building and then I made the scary walk over to those double doors. Anyone who has ever been late to a church service knows what this exact moment is like. As soon as you open those doors, everyone in the room turns to look at you (for those who haven't ever been to a church, just think of a time when you were late to a high school or college class). It's like having a spotlight over your head that says, "Yes, I am the one who just couldn't manage to resist hitting that snooze button a few extra times this morning."

Anyways, the church we went to actually ended up having a really relaxed environment and the people there were all pretty welcoming. It's kind of a smaller church. There were maybe 25-30 adults in the 9:00 am adult service. Honestly though, I prefer smaller churches to a larger church any day. When you walk into a large church with hundreds or even thousands of people who attend it, you could end up going years before crossing paths with other people who have been a part of that church family for the same amount of time. To me, larger churches lose their touch with everyone who attends and rely too much on small groups as a way for their members to stay/be connected.

So after attending our first service at One Church, I have to say (maybe a little prematurely) that I think we have found a church that we can feel comfortable at, and even try and get involved in. That's another great thing about smaller churches; they are always trying to find ways to get involved with their communities and build them up so they can get awareness out there.

 This is another thing I am looking for in a church. I want to get involved with making the community I live in a better place, because that is truly where you can start making a difference in this world. 

Photo Credits

Image 1- Today.com

Image 2- The Cripplegate